Over the past weeks, I had to sincerely reflect over my own choices that I made and how they play out in reality. I am thinking why do I do the very things that I do, and why do I keep doing the things that I do not wish to do, while seeking to pursue what I want and finding no capacity to do it.
I am sure that phrase just made you read it twice, but hang in there, and I will develop that in the following lines as I lay out the importance of reflection on our own thoughts and choices and how it applies to us in order to grow emotionally, relationally and spiritually under the Creator of our souls.
“Who makes the choices here?”John Theodore
I was going to write my next blogpost and had a theme that I had set out to write but could not engage with due to several things that happened over the two weeks and a subliminal shift in my focus that occurred in the light of a commitment that I made.
I reflected on why that shift in my direction happened an had to realise that though I hold the desire to write and share my thoughts and journey with others, I have lost the motivation to go forward and just do it. But why do I keep doing things that keep me from going forward when I clearly desire to advance with this project?
Principles and values
As a believer in Christ and defender of the faith, I submit myself willingly to authority that I view as authentic and biblically ordained. That means that I will take counsel with important people in my life that are older and wiser than I before going out and doing something that I view as significant.
In the line with that principle, I committed myself to go to these people in my life about publishing this website and becoming active in the blogging community. When I made that my goal, something very interesting happend over the next week. I started to make excuses in my head and to the people who will be most affected by the publishing of this blog. I rationalised why “right now” would not be the right time to talk about my blog or forgot about it very conveniently. And so it happened that at the date of writing, I had only talked about the blog to these people but not sent out any invitations to view the writings I had done.
The dynamic that was lunched, halted. And the good commitments were stored in the box that says,”later is a better time”.John Theodore
That’s why I find myself thinking and saying,”Who makes the choices here?”. Why am I ready to commit to go out and be courageous and all of a sudden everything starts to stall? The dynamic that was lunched, halted. And the good commitments were stored in the box that says,”later is a better time”.
Have you encountered such things in your life? I am not talking about changing plans consciously when the life situation changes or new ideas direct you into another better direction. What I do talk about is this internal system of insecurity, worry and fear, that causes you to overthink and over-rationalise the steps you should take in order to get to the next level.
Imagine you want to propose to your girlfriend, but you are waiting for the best moment to make that proposal, yet it never happens because either you are too busy, too tired, too poor, or you have an insecure moment (you can imagine other scenarios). On the other side you want to make sure she is at the right spot too so you wait for her to be in the mood or less busy, etc.
There are decisions in life where you just need to play. Trusting the knowledge you have and going forward in faith. Face that fear of being ridiculed and made fun of and go for the next level.John Theodore
There are decisions in life where you just need to play. Trusting the knowledge you have and going forward in faith. Face that fear of being ridiculed and made fun of and go for the next level.
In my case that means, I should strategically talk to the people that I value and look up to in the coming months about my project and get them involved in reading and critiquing this blog. The outcome of that will be growth writing and communicating amid deeper and more intimate relationships to those whom I love.
Our internal fear system is our greatest enemy when it comes to living a life in accord with our values and particularly with the values of Jesus Christ. We are hardwired for self preserving decisions and hurting others in the process and that hardwiring will cause us to stall and cease our emotional, relational and spiritual growth if we let it make decisions for us. Our development as humans stopps as our values crumble.
Commitment to repent and go back on track
The only way to break free from the tyranny of our flesh is that we embrace that we can’t do it alone and that we need help from others. Facing our fears is a huge task, and we need outside forces to help us with that. Love and encouragement, compassion and understanding are gifts that can only be given by others and they are most prominently found in the loving communities of Bible believing Christians and God himself.
The only way to break free from the tyranny of our flesh is that we embrace that we can’t do it alone and that we need help from others.John Theodore
Even now, to come back to this point and get engaged again I needed the help of outer sources of wisdom and encouragement to bring me to writing this article and to continue this vision and project to help others, like you, break free from a life that is governed by self destructive coping behaviours and unhealthy life decisions.
My journey is going forward and I strive to stay on track with the help of those that I am accountable to and the help of God who loves and encourages me to overcome the fears that are engrained in my innermost parts due to my sin nature and the abuse that I suffered. But it is my choice and my responsibility to go forward. If I am stuck it is because I have let myself get driven by my fears rather than by conscious choices. We have the choice and that is great news!
Great News! There is HOPE!
What about you my friend? Now is the time to act and start your own project and tell your story. Your story is relevant and has purpose and meaning. You are able to share it and I would love to hear what you have to say. You can take the step and break to cycle of being stuck.
I made decisions and had to stick with my choices against all fears. We can choose to live a responsible life and it only needs one decision to start living free. I can help you process through the most important questions of this journey and you can choose what you want to do about it.
I invite you today, to take the step and be courageous and get in contact with me. Do not let overthinking and fear get the the best of you. You are worth it and I know it! You are worth the effort!
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King James Version (KJV)
Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,
Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds.